少了你的日子。。。

少了你的甜言蜜语， 少了你的声音，每天傻傻的看着msn 和 skype ， 看着那很久已经不会变青色的头像，日子真的很难过。。。

每天走在街上，看到其他情侣就自己在哪里不开心，生气自己。。。 少了你的日子就像少了阳光的植物，等死。。。 好想你啊。。。 真的再也开心不来了。。。 笑得也很勉强，表现得开心也都是假的。。。

1/5/2011

Tears dropping down uncontrollable, dunno since when, my smile became fake and it's not from my heart anymore... can't smile, can't be able to be happy...

the end

blog closed... nothing to say about it anymore... What pass is pass, but when it is insist of taking out and talk about it... it wont have any meaning after all...

My blog will be closed for the moment until there is someone important to me that wanted me to re-write sweet things or what... because there isn't any point posting up how down fall is your life and sharing it to others. It's not how things works... when you look at your down fall, it will always be downfall. Ciao guys. Thanks for supporting if still there are people reading.

SDK

This is a place that i was born and grown, but yet this is also the place i wouldn't want to step my feet back anymore. It's just full of my memories with her... every single moment we spend, every place we go is just haunting me bit by bit. Airport, the skylight, the stars, my old house, the beach, some place we use to go, is just bringing back all of my memories which i have tend to hide it and forget it.

I know it the best when is over, it is over, she is having her good life now... why should i interrupt? She told me that, if faith want us to meet each other... it will... every time I'm back here... I'll just wonder around, hoping a little second to see her, seems that faith is really joking with me....

1/11/2010

it's been a while since i posted up any post reason for not having anything to write... and updating all of you, i'm in a very bad condition, i tore my right ankle's muscle or something like that.

have to be using tongkat for few months... wish me good luck... not really in the mood due to some reason, just ask me about it...

Stress

Bloody hell! I am totally stressed out! 25 pages of assignment due on monday, mid-term on monday, It assignment due soon, loads and loads of presentation and test coming soon! Where on earth i have the time to take a rest? TOTALLY STRESSED OUT!!!!! I need to chill out ah!!!!

seriously, i am getting more and more tired... i don't even have energy for my usual activities for example shopping , hanging around with friends, now just college, assignment, study and etc.. darn it!!

New life, New start

I have actually started my college in a week ago, a brand new college, Tar College. Somehow, I love this college, due to some specific reason... ask me if you want to know more about it.

Well, I am no longer in Segi College anymore, and now I will be taking 2 hour public transport to go up to college for my one hour lecture.. kind of crazy ha? But I am seriously enjoying the process after almost a year not going back to college, rotting at home...

Wish me good luck guys, gonna go look for pretty girls soon.. muahahhahahahaha... I tell you guys, GIRLS IN TARC ARE SUPERB!!!!!

Drugs

When you started to wonder, why does people take drugs to bring out the euphoria even they know drugs will eventually kill them. Now i understand why, when there is something you cannot archive or something is just like a dream, you will eventually desperate till injecting some, just to fulfill the dream, which will never happened in reality.

Just don't want to accept the fact that she is not available anymore, things just happened like a dream just a sweet dream and it will just ended once you wake up, it will never last long... sometimes you can't even remember it...

Thanks for accompany this whole month, i really appreciate it. But the raw fact is, you have already had a boyfriend that love you, even though i don't mind intruding to your live, to love you once again... do you know that? But hurting you and intruding to your relationship really not easy for me, but blessing you on this relationship, i can't do that.. i can't manage to do that...

Now then i realize that, the love I kept deep in my heart will just came out when spending too much time with you... last time i ended up no where because started a relationship with my ex. but now you are already no longer single, why the timing is so wrong... i wonder...

going through my blog

I have finally got a chance going through all the post i posted in my blog due to some reason, somehow i found out that after that case, i had never posted much stuff in my blog... it's like i doesn't wanted to share anymore.

There are a lot of stuff in my heart, just i doesn't know that how to share it. Somehow i just wanted to keep it in my heart, no matter it is hurt, happy or what ever crap. I just not willing to post up anymore. Wondering if anyone still reading my blog, somehow i fell that it is boring viewing the post i posted up and it is getting more and more emo..

when on earth i have became a emo kid.. i never know this, should i be happy always?

There

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rachel chin here..

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if dun like tell me..

两个人的故事...

在一个小乡村里, 有一个男孩因为对这一个女生的爱慕, 而慢慢的接近了一个女孩, 每天他都会找女孩问问他喜欢那女生的事, 可是一直都是不好的消息, 而且每一次都让男孩伤透了心, 男孩没有发觉当他失落事, 女孩都一直的陪伴在他身边.

时间过了,男孩开始习惯了女孩的陪伴,也渐渐的爱上了她...

快乐的时光不会很久,男孩要去到一个很远的地方去读书了,女孩没能跟去,只好留在故乡期待男孩每次的回来. 男孩是不可能会忘记女孩是怎么安慰他当他去到那遥远的地方... 男孩终于明白自己是不能没有了女孩, 他答应了女孩, 2010 年 10 月 10 日 会娶她, 那时对女孩来说一个很特别的一日.

他们那段感情有很多的挫折,但是他们重来没有放弃过,只不过为了那可以见得光的未来,他们选择了坚持...

2008年年尾,事情发生了... 男孩遇见了另一个她, 他自私的把女孩放在脑后了, 然后男孩也做了一个决定, 决定对女孩放手为了去认识一个对他不闻不问的人... 男孩把他对女孩的承诺,未来,把女孩对他的付出,女孩对他的爱完全的抛弃... 男孩当时觉得没有怎样,女孩默然的接受了... 男孩也继续的去追他的梦...

半年了,女孩重新的到了幸福,可能也把男孩忘了吧? 可是男孩却被那个他彻底的伤了,以为有一些希望可是却成为一场空...

分手已经一年了...你还好吗? 祝你幸福...

男孩累了...也不想再写下去了....

6/12/09

Time wont be waiting for you, and it pass so fast then you can't even have time to be able to take a glance on what have or had happened.

Things getting much more tougher and tougher recently, putting myself in troubles, getting myself out from those troubles and causing havoc on people's life, messing up stuff, fixing up people's stuff, seeing people getting upset, seeing people getting crazier after a while... Things are making me much more and more numb, letting me into another kind of life that is like building up some serious immune system on the things happening around me. This have the advantage and might as well have the disadvantage of it.

It's been fun recently, but after fun, things still remain the same, nothing big change... I'm pretty sure you really got my heart that night, and I know you aren't reading my blog anyway and just wanted to leave down some track of sweetness and just wanted to keep that night in my mind forever..

Timing isn't right? No one can tells since I aren't there first, and I can't stop and change anything. Just hope that a hug will express all my feelings deep inside me to you...

梦醒时分

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕

你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨

你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人

你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存

要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等



你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕

你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨

你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人

你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存

要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存

要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等


何必呢？ 很多东西已经不同了，等待只为安慰那受伤的心，等待下去，爱下去也是一样，一场空。。。有些人是永远永远也不必也不能等的。。。

29/9/2009

It's been another, going out to red box for singing and doing crazy stuff.

Arthur brought us to a shop around pudu to enjoy some extremely nice sup kambing! You can't imagine how nice is it, but don't eat too much of it because I can confirm you a dead after eating a lot of it... I have some serious headache after having a bow of it!!

We went to greenbox for some singing session today as well, took us around 6 hours in there for just 40 bucks! cheap like crap man!!

Anyway, today I finally found out something, nasty people's are all around Malaysia. When there is an accident occurs, MALAYSIAN will just slow down their darn vehicles and have a nice scene on what the hack is going on there! And this make the freaking highway jam like crap, they just slow down their car like there is no body's business!!! Malaysia culture huh? Taking down car plate number for 4D? If it will be so easy, I might as well be a reporter, I can have a list of car crash number plate if you want something bloody, I can as well get some bloody car accident with lots of dead bodies and I'll buy all of them, and I'll become damn rich am I? Is this possible? Use your brain and think about it... dumb...

Pulau Ketam

Today, 911... hoho.. it has been 8 years since WTC being boomed... Anyway, I had been to a trip with my college mates to Pulau Ketam aka Crap/Crab Island...

These trip was organised due to our photography class. I happily charged my camera, and bring my camera to take a lot of nice photo during this trip. It was fun though, having sun burn all over my body, and blowing some fresh air and looking at some dirty sea, drinking beer early in the morning.. haha! That really chill me alot, and the most happiest things during this trip is, I took a lot of very nice photo. Photo are easy to be taken, but to take a nice photo, it mostly depends on your luck to have a nice catch. So Taking a nice photo isn't as easy as you think it will be :)

Have a great lunch as well, eating crabs, lala, something so call URINE PRAWN :p it cost me a lot, but it was really nice, and as well, I knew even more of my college's mate ~~

But the worst part was here... I discover my dslr aren't able to read the picture I have took, in fact, this occurs sometimes. When I reached home, Oh YEAH!!!

I TRIED IT OUT FOR FEW TIMES... BUT... I CAN'T RETRIEVE MY PICTURE!! ALL PICTURE THAT I HAD BEEN SPENDING MY TIME WITH THE WHOLE DAY HAVE ALL GONE!!! Crank that!!! I lost all of my picture, and I have no idea it is the fault of the memory card or my camera!!! Anyway.. I am going to sell my baby out.. and let me tell you.. I WONT GONNA MISS YOU SOB... OR SOF... BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME LOST ALL OF MY PRECIOUS ASSIGNMENT!!!

2 sep 2009

Kind of addicted to cooking for myself recently, can save some money and it is a bit healthy also comparing eating out there.. anyone want me to cook for you? who interested plz call me.. lol


sorry guys.. lack of things to post recently

19 August 2009

I have been isolating myself for 3 days, and there is 2 more days to go... The boring is going to bring me wild! Guys! I want party!! Bring me out fast...

2 more days to go...
Hope that i'll be fine soon.. wahahahaha

update

To update you guys, I have been admitted to the hospital just now, with Arthur, Joseph and Kenneth. Kenneth and I were sick however that 2 aren't. After almost 4 hours of waiting, finally it is my turn... And guess what??



I AM H1N1 POSITIVE!!!!! CRAP!!!

Gonna stay at home for a week and hope that nothing big happened to me.. Please pray for me guys... the side effect of the medicine will be horrible... hope that i can overcome it.

Anyway, who wanna have a holiday can come and look for me, I'll give you a free kiss.. I am having a deadly weapon on me now! wakakaka

sick

I am in Kenneth's house now, going to hospital for check up later..

I am having fever, headache, flue, muscle pain, cough and others.... These are the symptoms of h1n1, please pray that I am ok.. I don't wanna die so fast man...

BIG FOOL

it is 4.30am now... and i can't even manage to sleep... I'll try not to use any foul language in this post.. I'll try....

I am still in the shocked, haven't recover yet... Being to a place, seeing things... that is enough to make me go numb for weeks i guess...

Memories are still fresh, Remembering how is the reaction... how is my heart beating, how is my hand shaking, how the tears drop and how i scream like crazy on the highway... I'm out of control again...

I can't manage to smile at all... My face's muscle are like so tense, and finding out myself are like a jerk. Going there showing people a funny show... oh yeah.. I am here, laugh at my foolishness baby! Son of the FISH!!