1/5/2011

Tears dropping down uncontrollable, dunno since when, my smile became fake and it's not from my heart anymore... can't smile, can't be able to be happy...

the end

blog closed... nothing to say about it anymore... What pass is pass, but when it is insist of taking out and talk about it... it wont have any meaning after all...

My blog will be closed for the moment until there is someone important to me that wanted me to re-write sweet things or what... because there isn't any point posting up how down fall is your life and sharing it to others. It's not how things works... when you look at your down fall, it will always be downfall. Ciao guys. Thanks for supporting if still there are people reading.

SDK

This is a place that i was born and grown, but yet this is also the place i wouldn't want to step my feet back anymore. It's just full of my memories with her... every single moment we spend, every place we go is just haunting me bit by bit. Airport, the skylight, the stars, my old house, the beach, some place we use to go, is just bringing back all of my memories which i have tend to hide it and forget it.

I know it the best when is over, it is over, she is having her good life now... why should i interrupt? She told me that, if faith want us to meet each other... it will... every time I'm back here... I'll just wonder around, hoping a little second to see her, seems that faith is really joking with me....

1/11/2010

it's been a while since i posted up any post reason for not having anything to write... and updating all of you, i'm in a very bad condition, i tore my right ankle's muscle or something like that.

have to be using tongkat for few months... wish me good luck... not really in the mood due to some reason, just ask me about it...

Stress

Bloody hell! I am totally stressed out! 25 pages of assignment due on monday, mid-term on monday, It assignment due soon, loads and loads of presentation and test coming soon! Where on earth i have the time to take a rest? TOTALLY STRESSED OUT!!!!! I need to chill out ah!!!!

seriously, i am getting more and more tired... i don't even have energy for my usual activities for example shopping , hanging around with friends, now just college, assignment, study and etc.. darn it!!

New life, New start

I have actually started my college in a week ago, a brand new college, Tar College. Somehow, I love this college, due to some specific reason... ask me if you want to know more about it.

Well, I am no longer in Segi College anymore, and now I will be taking 2 hour public transport to go up to college for my one hour lecture.. kind of crazy ha? But I am seriously enjoying the process after almost a year not going back to college, rotting at home...

Wish me good luck guys, gonna go look for pretty girls soon.. muahahhahahahaha... I tell you guys, GIRLS IN TARC ARE SUPERB!!!!!

Drugs

When you started to wonder, why does people take drugs to bring out the euphoria even they know drugs will eventually kill them. Now i understand why, when there is something you cannot archive or something is just like a dream, you will eventually desperate till injecting some, just to fulfill the dream, which will never happened in reality.

Just don't want to accept the fact that she is not available anymore, things just happened like a dream just a sweet dream and it will just ended once you wake up, it will never last long... sometimes you can't even remember it...

Thanks for accompany this whole month, i really appreciate it. But the raw fact is, you have already had a boyfriend that love you, even though i don't mind intruding to your live, to love you once again... do you know that? But hurting you and intruding to your relationship really not easy for me, but blessing you on this relationship, i can't do that.. i can't manage to do that...

Now then i realize that, the love I kept deep in my heart will just came out when spending too much time with you... last time i ended up no where because started a relationship with my ex. but now you are already no longer single, why the timing is so wrong... i wonder...