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This is a place that i was born and grown, but yet this is also the place i wouldn't want to step my feet back anymore. It's just full of my memories with her... every single moment we spend, every place we go is just haunting me bit by bit. Airport, the skylight, the stars, my old house, the beach, some place we use to go, is just bringing back all of my memories which i have tend to hide it and forget it.

I know it the best when is over, it is over, she is having her good life now... why should i interrupt? She told me that, if faith want us to meet each other... it will... every time I'm back here... I'll just wonder around, hoping a little second to see her, seems that faith is really joking with me....

1/11/2010

it's been a while since i posted up any post reason for not having anything to write... and updating all of you, i'm in a very bad condition, i tore my right ankle's muscle or something like that.

have to be using tongkat for few months... wish me good luck... not really in the mood due to some reason, just ask me about it...

Stress

Bloody hell! I am totally stressed out! 25 pages of assignment due on monday, mid-term on monday, It assignment due soon, loads and loads of presentation and test coming soon! Where on earth i have the time to take a rest? TOTALLY STRESSED OUT!!!!! I need to chill out ah!!!!

seriously, i am getting more and more tired... i don't even have energy for my usual activities for example shopping , hanging around with friends, now just college, assignment, study and etc.. darn it!!

New life, New start

I have actually started my college in a week ago, a brand new college, Tar College. Somehow, I love this college, due to some specific reason... ask me if you want to know more about it.

Well, I am no longer in Segi College anymore, and now I will be taking 2 hour public transport to go up to college for my one hour lecture.. kind of crazy ha? But I am seriously enjoying the process after almost a year not going back to college, rotting at home...

Wish me good luck guys, gonna go look for pretty girls soon.. muahahhahahahaha... I tell you guys, GIRLS IN TARC ARE SUPERB!!!!!

Drugs

When you started to wonder, why does people take drugs to bring out the euphoria even they know drugs will eventually kill them. Now i understand why, when there is something you cannot archive or something is just like a dream, you will eventually desperate till injecting some, just to fulfill the dream, which will never happened in reality.

Just don't want to accept the fact that she is not available anymore, things just happened like a dream just a sweet dream and it will just ended once you wake up, it will never last long... sometimes you can't even remember it...

Thanks for accompany this whole month, i really appreciate it. But the raw fact is, you have already had a boyfriend that love you, even though i don't mind intruding to your live, to love you once again... do you know that? But hurting you and intruding to your relationship really not easy for me, but blessing you on this relationship, i can't do that.. i can't manage to do that...

Now then i realize that, the love I kept deep in my heart will just came out when spending too much time with you... last time i ended up no where because started a relationship with my ex. but now you are already no longer single, why the timing is so wrong... i wonder...

going through my blog

I have finally got a chance going through all the post i posted in my blog due to some reason, somehow i found out that after that case, i had never posted much stuff in my blog... it's like i doesn't wanted to share anymore.

There are a lot of stuff in my heart, just i doesn't know that how to share it. Somehow i just wanted to keep it in my heart, no matter it is hurt, happy or what ever crap. I just not willing to post up anymore. Wondering if anyone still reading my blog, somehow i fell that it is boring viewing the post i posted up and it is getting more and more emo..

when on earth i have became a emo kid.. i never know this, should i be happy always?

There

Hey gab..

rachel chin here..

there ur new blog..

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if dun like tell me..