Been to a terrible place, having a terrible nights with some horrible stuff and torturing seeing, and some ugly image around my sight...
And had been drinking some vomiting drinks making myself extremely sick and seeing lots of unwanted to see HUMAN BEING....
In spoil my beginning of my nice weekend, make my mood drop into the drain... Just like vomiting shit...
HORRIBLE PLACE.. NEVER EVER GO THERE ANYMORE...
Friday, July 17, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Assignment assignment
There are two assignment to due this week and I haven't start doing anyone of them!! One of them I have to hand it up tomorrow and still I am not in the mood to do it due the tiredness and my damn stupid stomach... I have been running to washroom non stop since 11pm.
Kenneth, nice one ah.. Full of shit.. yeah.. I am really full of shit right now, full with shit in my stomach and full with shit in my shitty assignment... Totally full of shit.. and I am enjoying my own shit right now!!
Thanks Joshua for the meal tonite~ hugs hugs...
Anyway, semester ending soon and I am having another one month holiday, plans that I had made till today are:
1)Get my own car
2)Study hard
3)Enjoy my holiday
4)Grap some nice shirt and shoes!!
5)Build up relationship with GOD
And now.. I off to toilet and BOMB AGAIN!!!
BOMB BOMB POW... THIS IS WHAT I AM THINKING WHEN I SIT ON THE TOILET BOWL!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Kenneth, nice one ah.. Full of shit.. yeah.. I am really full of shit right now, full with shit in my stomach and full with shit in my shitty assignment... Totally full of shit.. and I am enjoying my own shit right now!!
Thanks Joshua for the meal tonite~ hugs hugs...
Anyway, semester ending soon and I am having another one month holiday, plans that I had made till today are:
1)Get my own car
2)Study hard
3)Enjoy my holiday
4)Grap some nice shirt and shoes!!
5)Build up relationship with GOD
And now.. I off to toilet and BOMB AGAIN!!!
BOMB BOMB POW... THIS IS WHAT I AM THINKING WHEN I SIT ON THE TOILET BOWL!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
我爱的女孩
By feeling, I wrote this, planning to put in music and make it out asap...
anyone wanna help?
anyone wanna help?
你甜美的笑容
你可爱的脸蛋
你的一举一动
俘虏了我的一颗真心
无法想象没有你的夜晚
没有你的甜言蜜语
是那么的宁静 是那么的孤单
我爱的女孩 你懂我心
我不曾放手 也不曾放弃
只因我爱你 决不言放弃
不在乎你是否爱过我
一心一意只想要你开心
我爱的女孩 你可好吗?
选择的反手 是为了看到你的笑
如果我的存在 让你痛苦
如果我的关心 让你烦恼
我选择了退后
退到你感觉不到我的界线
你流过的眼泪
你哭泣的声音
你所受的委屈
对我来说是种折磨
自己不能给你什么
你也不想我给你什么
或许保持朋友的距离
对你我来说也是种解脱
我爱的女孩 你懂我心
我不曾放手 也不曾放弃
只因我爱你 决不言放弃
不在乎你是否爱过我
一心一意只想要你开心
我爱的女孩 你可好吗?
选择的反手 是为了看到你的笑
如果我的存在 让你痛苦
如果我的关心 让你烦恼
我选择了退后
退到你感觉不到我的界线
我爱的女孩 我最爱的女孩
就让我给你我最后一次的疼爱
词：gabriel
曲:
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
3rd day
Addiction still undercontrol, not yet die!! oh yeah~~ Today was seriously a tiring day, my alarm and joseph's alarm have been ringing for an hour till the moment i wake up, then we woke up and went to mamak for our breakfast... yeah.. both type of breakfast LOL. FYI, Joseph was being coned by the mamak today.. haha!
I went to fix my teeth and my doctor said that I could take my bracers of in 2 months time~ yeah! Miss my white teeth without steel!! But before that I have to bleach it since taking to much substance that will stain on my teeth :(
Send my phone to ss 15 as well, but that guy give it back to me, telling me to go to service centre in Low yat my own, because sending there my own will be much more quicker then the shop sending it.. Crap isn't it? Whatever, I just want my phone to be fix as soon as possible.
Add on, my computer space is running out... 500Gb have been full for few months and I don't even have anymore space to put my stuff, gonna get another 600++gb harddisk or a 1Tb hard disk this few days, I can't stand it already... Anyway, who wanna sponcer me Cooler Master casing? and also Razor mouse and keyboard?? lol
This are my unentertaint request in facebook.. it is making me crazy... so disturbing wei... Come on guys.. don't simply add unknown in your facebook.. at least adding someone you know or you see before...
I went to fix my teeth and my doctor said that I could take my bracers of in 2 months time~ yeah! Miss my white teeth without steel!! But before that I have to bleach it since taking to much substance that will stain on my teeth :(
Send my phone to ss 15 as well, but that guy give it back to me, telling me to go to service centre in Low yat my own, because sending there my own will be much more quicker then the shop sending it.. Crap isn't it? Whatever, I just want my phone to be fix as soon as possible.
Add on, my computer space is running out... 500Gb have been full for few months and I don't even have anymore space to put my stuff, gonna get another 600++gb harddisk or a 1Tb hard disk this few days, I can't stand it already... Anyway, who wanna sponcer me Cooler Master casing? and also Razor mouse and keyboard?? lol
This are my unentertaint request in facebook.. it is making me crazy... so disturbing wei... Come on guys.. don't simply add unknown in your facebook.. at least adding someone you know or you see before...
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
2nd day
Mission failed today, I took 5 today... too bad too bad... Not because beh tahan, is because nothing to do :(
Anway, I have finally done my presentation today. I only found out that I looked for the wrong research paper today and my lecturer give me a day to redo it. Well, I prepared my whole presentation in a night.
During my class, I found out that most of my course mate do it so details and my slide and stuff i prepared is so freaking simple and little... I totally freak myself off and run here and there all the class and was trying to add stuff in it to hope that it will look more nice.
I failed to do that because I don't really understand what my research paper is about!!!
At last, it was my turn, I pull my laptop up and present it quickly. As quickly as possible and craps a lot of stuff, I don't even understand what the hack I am talking!!
After my presentation, I quickly get out of the class and go walk around to cool myself down, I thought I could be screwing up my presentation again, since i screwed up my mid-term exam.. I got 8 out of 30... Deep shit...
When i reenter my class, everyone left except my lecturer. She told me that i had done a great job, she gave me a 10!!! WOW!! Praise the lord!! I was so shocked and happy that time! Seriously didn't expected this!!
She liked my presentation, she told me that it is short and straight to the point and this is only called a presentation!!
I gonna do better next time, with god giving me wisdom , I believed I'll be much more better.
updating you guys, I am going around kl to find bookstore with books about a serial killer name Ted Bundy, who is interested to join me, just give me a call~~ ciaozzzz
Anway, I have finally done my presentation today. I only found out that I looked for the wrong research paper today and my lecturer give me a day to redo it. Well, I prepared my whole presentation in a night.
During my class, I found out that most of my course mate do it so details and my slide and stuff i prepared is so freaking simple and little... I totally freak myself off and run here and there all the class and was trying to add stuff in it to hope that it will look more nice.
I failed to do that because I don't really understand what my research paper is about!!!
At last, it was my turn, I pull my laptop up and present it quickly. As quickly as possible and craps a lot of stuff, I don't even understand what the hack I am talking!!
After my presentation, I quickly get out of the class and go walk around to cool myself down, I thought I could be screwing up my presentation again, since i screwed up my mid-term exam.. I got 8 out of 30... Deep shit...
When i reenter my class, everyone left except my lecturer. She told me that i had done a great job, she gave me a 10!!! WOW!! Praise the lord!! I was so shocked and happy that time! Seriously didn't expected this!!
She liked my presentation, she told me that it is short and straight to the point and this is only called a presentation!!
I gonna do better next time, with god giving me wisdom , I believed I'll be much more better.
updating you guys, I am going around kl to find bookstore with books about a serial killer name Ted Bundy, who is interested to join me, just give me a call~~ ciaozzzz
Monday, July 6, 2009
1st day
Today is the 1st day I stop smoking. Starting from this early morning, I can't even wake up from my bed, and the whole day is totally lack of energy... I look like a zombie now!! GOSH!!
Whole brain is thinking of the feelinng when inhaling nicoutine, oh gosh... It is seriously killing me. Anyway, who want to replace me to go to club? Friends invite me to go to club on tuesday and friday, I don't really want to go since going there is just about drinking, and smoking... I made my decision not to drink and smoke but then there are so so so many temptation ha...
Die hard day 1... Will update what is my situation everyday... Hope I wont die, worst then drug addicts... This is what will happened if you take 1 big pack of dunhill king size in a day and this maintain for a month or two... then you decided to quit it and it will really DRAG YOU TO HELL!!!
Kissssss meeeeee orrrrr killllll meeeeeeee.........
Whole brain is thinking of the feelinng when inhaling nicoutine, oh gosh... It is seriously killing me. Anyway, who want to replace me to go to club? Friends invite me to go to club on tuesday and friday, I don't really want to go since going there is just about drinking, and smoking... I made my decision not to drink and smoke but then there are so so so many temptation ha...
Die hard day 1... Will update what is my situation everyday... Hope I wont die, worst then drug addicts... This is what will happened if you take 1 big pack of dunhill king size in a day and this maintain for a month or two... then you decided to quit it and it will really DRAG YOU TO HELL!!!
Kissssss meeeeee orrrrr killllll meeeeeeee.........
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Decision
Life is all about making decision, a decision you make will either bring you to an extreme or another extreme... This just happened to me
Few days back, you can see my mood swings so great that you can't believe that it is me standing in front of you, yeah... some problem happens for sure.
That day when I am half drunk, I made a decision to fall into a bad side, I called lots of my friends non stop looking for drugs, such as cocaine, so called "powder", pills, morphine and stuff just to take myself away from reality hope that it will lesser the pain. When I am making these phone calls. A very important person in my heart smsed me, seriously I didn't expected that person will sms me.
That friend of mine give me a verse mathew17:20
Few days back, you can see my mood swings so great that you can't believe that it is me standing in front of you, yeah... some problem happens for sure.
That day when I am half drunk, I made a decision to fall into a bad side, I called lots of my friends non stop looking for drugs, such as cocaine, so called "powder", pills, morphine and stuff just to take myself away from reality hope that it will lesser the pain. When I am making these phone calls. A very important person in my heart smsed me, seriously I didn't expected that person will sms me.
That friend of mine give me a verse mathew17:20
Matthew 17:20 (King James Version)
20And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.
God spokes to me through there friend. I know god don't want me to fall back to those life, if god didnt' touch her for sending me this verse at that time, or if she simply send some funny sms... You can see that I am taking drugs right now...
I made my own decision, why choosed to fall? I will strengthen up myself, and be tough. There isn't anymore time and reason for me to be emo and down. I will put down all of my habits and stuffs to become a better man. To honor god's name and to praise him, and to do big things for him!!!
God saved me once again, this is undeniable.
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